“Book Descriptions:My War Gone By, I Miss It So is a fiercely compelling, beautifully written personal account of the Bosnian war. The book alternates between Anthony Loyd's experiences in Bosnia & personal reflections of his time in the British army, his parents' divorce, his estrangement from his father & his heroin addiction. He describes the war at eye level: detailing the way bodies look after they've been shot or blown up, looking thru the sights of a Muslim gun trained on a Serb soldier, traveling with a French mercenary & fleeing from advancing Serbs during battle. The book, filled with firefights & mutilated corpses, isn't for the squeamish. Bosnia was "a playground where the worst & most fantastic excesses of the human mind were acted out." For him, the high of battle substituted for the high of heroin & vice versa: "I had come to Bosnia partially as an adventure. But after a while I got into the infinite death trip. I was not unhappy. Quite the opposite. I was delighted with most of what the war had offered me: chicks, kicks, cash & chaos; teenage punk dreams turned real & wreathed in gunsmoke." His big break as a war correspondent came when another British journalist was wounded. He had arrived in Bosnia a war junkie, just trying to figure out what was going on & sell a few pictures to papers on the side. "Journalism in itself had never really interested me, I saw it only as a passport to war." He didn't cover the war like most other journalists--he went right into battles. He dismisses what other journalists did in Bosnia: staying at the Holiday Inn in Sarajevo, driving out to the UN hq in an armored car & then returning to the relative safety of their hotel "to file their heartfelt vitriol with scarcely a hair out of place." Loyd, who did everything but carry a gun against the Serbs, scoffs at the idea of journalistic objectivity. "What good did reporting ever do in Bosnia anyway?" he sneers. In fact, he seems almost embarrassed not to be fighting himself. "I felt I was a pornographer, a voyeur come to watch." Lucky for us he did go to Bosnia.--Linda Killian (edited)” DRIVE
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